trauma demons

Free translation from parts of the book Samarkand by Olga Kharitidi.
The Book is AMAZING! Read it!

... The source of all illness and misfortune is trauma. And all of us are carrier of alive incarnations of those traumas. In the tradition of Usbekistan they call this alive bits "demons of trauma".
If something has hurt you very bad and you havent been able to accept this trauma fully/totally as part of your own personal story, this happening will become a gap in your memory. And if this trauma is repeated or very deep, a demon will start living in this gap.
Darwins law says "survival of the fittest. So the demon run by this law. In order to survive and grow bigger and more horrible they need to eat. Their food is fear and mainly pain. To get their nutrition they will do anything to create new situations in which this pain and fear will appear again and again. Very often victims become the one harming another one, doing the same thing they have experienced them selves. Repeating itself, nourishing the demon who lives in this gap of memory.
Our genes are cells of memory. Some of those memory gaps taken by a demon are inherited over generations. They blurr our memories. Our memory isnt whole anymore. The gap becomes bigger and bigger and provides unconcsiously housing for growing demons.
To gain victory over those demons means complete healing. Very often our bodies try to battle with them by getting "sick".
One thing we fear most is not the unknown - its the known. Its those demons we know too well and push them away. its the death after the death we need to fear the most. In many cultures they speak about it. After you passed on you will need to pass 7 doors and meet the watcher over the treshholds, meet your worst fears and look them straight into the eyes and say " I know you".
To prepare yourself for this to meet our "second death" and be free and reborn, we need to practise in the now.
By completing our memory, we will not leave any space for the demons to live. we need to tell our stories and complete our gaps. Some demons have been passed on over generations... if they dont get healed they grow, connect themselves and become collectives.
In traditional cultures the "rites of passage" played a big part in society. Before entering a new phase in life you had to go through an initiaton ritual that resolved all trauma nodes from the past and released the way to the future.
In our modern societies we have lost those ceremonies. Our modern societies dont know any means to help their members to get rid of trauma. So thats why those demons became so big, huge collective demons and the may will be more dangerous as those ones who just started the world wars.
But there are ways to meet this challenge.
If you start healing your own sufferings you can start healing your own people.
Give space to hear stories. Whole stories. Listen....

(I really recommend to read this book. Just reading it makes you more complete already!)

Cello

Instead of africa I played Cello. Its the first time since about 4 years. And the tones are still sounding not too bad ;-)
I also climbed a tree, and for those ones who know me very well - you know how muc I love trees and need the climbing. To top this marvelous day I spent also 2 hours doing Acrobatics with some people here at the collge and it was a breakthrough day. we could do many things we havent been able to yet.
great day.

Weekends

This weekend I stayed in Emerson College.
Enjoying my little room, listening to music and trying to catch up with some things from te past, I havent dealt with for some time. Tomorrow I will go back to Africa, Tanzania, diving in the memories and I hope to finish writing my report about the 3 months last year.
Karibu - welcome
what are your best memories from last year?

Januar Stimmung

Der Seele Schaffensmacht,
sie strebt aus dem Herzensgrunde,
im Menschenleben Götterkräfte
zu rechtem Wirken zu entflammen,
Sich selber zu gestalten
in Menschenliebe und im Menschenwerke.

The now of Storytelling

A Storytelling course at www.emerson.org.uk

What is the relationship between your life NOW and the stories and myths from the oral tradition of the past?
Which of those stories are asking to be told NOW to show the full range of our humanity?
What is the role of the storyteller and the power of the spoken word when the warmth of human encounter is often replaced by digital communication? 
How can our stories serve the communities and environments in which we live and work?

In this ten-week course we will explore The Now of Storytelling in three different ways:
*The Skills of the Storyteller – in-depth work on story structure, voice, gesture, movement and audience awareness.
*The Oral Tradition – from teaching tales to fairy tales and myth.
*Biographical Storytelling – shaping and crafting our personal stories as gifts to illuminate our human experience. 
Essential to this journey is a path of Inner Development, the on-going work of being fully present and bridging the gap between who we are and what we tell. Participants will be encouraged to develop their own distinctive style of telling in a supportive atmosphere with individual feedback and coaching. The working language is English for which fluency is required. Supporting subjects will include: clowning, story games, spontaneous storytelling and artistic work