I went back to the north side of the island to see my family one more time. to see pics of us sailing click
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=168615&l=14e43&id=750245222
I got a ride with a great local boy all the way here.
To day I was on the computer the whole day, going through 400 emails of Joshua looking for great quotes he send me during the last year. This process helped me a lot to see where I am, how my journey started with Global passageways and to accept that I am not in the core team anymore. And that all is good. I am going my path no meatter what. And I still can give all my love to this initiative, just in another way then I thought. And I am really greatful for his love all this time.
I am here to learn.
Monday 20 October 2008
kalani & Chris
The other day we meet Kalani, a hawaiian leader. He is full on fire and connected to our cause. His friend Chris is a true community builder and something strong connects us. Joshua, Andrew and me had a thai dinner with them.
Its so powerful to see how the positiv attitude of one man can make EVERYONE feel so happy and empowered. just through the simple fact of being who you are and looking at the positiv of the other person.
Its so powerful to see how the positiv attitude of one man can make EVERYONE feel so happy and empowered. just through the simple fact of being who you are and looking at the positiv of the other person.
Beth
I finally found the number of Beth. She is one of my marriaged aunts. I havent seen her and her 2 daughters for 8 years and it happens that they live very close to Jim Shannons place. Andrew one of the volunteers and me spend the night there.
Lots of alaska stories. And wow my cousin Maya has grown up. Its amazing and good to meet them. it gives me more confident when I am around family.
then we hitch hike back to Hilo. many different people: local drunk boys and rich tourists pick us up. We manage to get back to Hilo just in time before the farmers market is closing.
Thank you universe!
Lots of alaska stories. And wow my cousin Maya has grown up. Its amazing and good to meet them. it gives me more confident when I am around family.
then we hitch hike back to Hilo. many different people: local drunk boys and rich tourists pick us up. We manage to get back to Hilo just in time before the farmers market is closing.
Thank you universe!
Jim Shannon
Jim Shannon is an amazing Storyteller I meet last year in Colorado and lives on the Big Island in a small community in "paradise" called Artesia.
We spent 2 days at his place, he is helping with the preparation for global passageways as well.
besides being eaten up by mosquitos I manage to center myself at his place. I finally take some time wo work on a poem and some storytelling.
Its a good place to be.
We spent 2 days at his place, he is helping with the preparation for global passageways as well.
besides being eaten up by mosquitos I manage to center myself at his place. I finally take some time wo work on a poem and some storytelling.
Its a good place to be.
first week in Hawaii
Arriving. tanking sunlight. get up everyday before sunrise. drink fresh coconut milk every day so far, swimm in the ocean every other day.
meet old and new friends. learn more about perma culture. go to the farmers market. trying to find my place and task in the preparing for the meeting at the end of november (gobalpassageways.org)
crying laughing dancing love threwing-up headache sleepyness connecting breathing forgiving processing hitch-hiking sailing talkin-stories living being...
Its my path with all its crazy and miraculus encounters.
meet old and new friends. learn more about perma culture. go to the farmers market. trying to find my place and task in the preparing for the meeting at the end of november (gobalpassageways.org)
crying laughing dancing love threwing-up headache sleepyness connecting breathing forgiving processing hitch-hiking sailing talkin-stories living being...
Its my path with all its crazy and miraculus encounters.
Sunday 12 October 2008
transfer to Hawaii
I got a ride to Anchorage with a friend of my cousin Connie. Snow on the Homestead, Snowstorm on the way. Great little house in Anchorage that gave me the chance to take a hot shower finally after a few days without any, washing my hair and getting some computer typing done.
I forgot my purse in Homer, so I just have 2 USD left. She lends me 20USD. Luckily I have my passport with me, so I can fly to Hawaii.
I am very tired. the plane leaves at 2 AM, stopps in Seattle. I have a 7 hour layover in Honululu. And yes I remember Hawaii. My body remembers the smell, the air.
I am happy. I take a bus to Waikiki. drink my first fresh Coconut water and do some emails.
In the evening a one hour flight to the Big Island. Joshua and his friend Riisa pick me up, I get a Lei.
I still cannot believe that I am here. I just had snow around me.
And I am so happy to be gone. The family in Alaska was a little too intense in the end.
But I am looking forward in going back there still.
Aloha Hawaii.
I forgot my purse in Homer, so I just have 2 USD left. She lends me 20USD. Luckily I have my passport with me, so I can fly to Hawaii.
I am very tired. the plane leaves at 2 AM, stopps in Seattle. I have a 7 hour layover in Honululu. And yes I remember Hawaii. My body remembers the smell, the air.
I am happy. I take a bus to Waikiki. drink my first fresh Coconut water and do some emails.
In the evening a one hour flight to the Big Island. Joshua and his friend Riisa pick me up, I get a Lei.
I still cannot believe that I am here. I just had snow around me.
And I am so happy to be gone. The family in Alaska was a little too intense in the end.
But I am looking forward in going back there still.
Aloha Hawaii.
family politics
We finally told everyone of the Kilcher family about our plan: to stay in Homer over the Winter and start a organic garden farming project in spring. Using this coming year as a period of experiemnting and learning. My aunts and uncles have so much knowledge. We preferable want to use horses to plow fields and stuff and also make a little CSA with the garden products.
If everything goes good, the family agrees and we still want to stay in Alaska we would prepare a 5 year plan to really do farming with animals etc. FOr now just a farm garden.
Everyone likes the idea. But there is some protokol to follow. Everyone need to vote on it. We have to write a proposal, also one for us staying in the cabin at the Homestead. This is possible under special conditions, all the 8 sisters and brothers ahve to agree on.
And before I know I am in the middle of trying to please everyone, doing politics with my own family. Even joining a anual family meeting with voting proxies for my mom on other issues (money, taxes etc) I have to start to educate myself about all the Trusts and laws and rules that are connected to the Kilcher Homestead.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh
am i really going to be able to have a silent year in Alaska?
It looks like there is a job (not paid of course) waiting for me to jump in. But do I really want to facilitate and organise and get more projects going there? Now? maybe in a year... my brain goes round and round..... there is so much potential.
I totally get sucked in to the dynamics. trying to not promise anything I wount be able to keep. It a great chance and challenge to learn to set clear boundaries for my self, always try to see the positive and dont start talking negative right away. To become humble. Work with my need for attention. Do the things I really want to do.
And hey, there are so many other beautyful places in thi sworld that need attention, connection and care and also have potential in them.
I hope I will never forget this and also be able to bring some of the world back to the Homestead and not get swallowed by it, because isolated it will never fullfill its purpose.
Courage!
If everything goes good, the family agrees and we still want to stay in Alaska we would prepare a 5 year plan to really do farming with animals etc. FOr now just a farm garden.
Everyone likes the idea. But there is some protokol to follow. Everyone need to vote on it. We have to write a proposal, also one for us staying in the cabin at the Homestead. This is possible under special conditions, all the 8 sisters and brothers ahve to agree on.
And before I know I am in the middle of trying to please everyone, doing politics with my own family. Even joining a anual family meeting with voting proxies for my mom on other issues (money, taxes etc) I have to start to educate myself about all the Trusts and laws and rules that are connected to the Kilcher Homestead.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh
am i really going to be able to have a silent year in Alaska?
It looks like there is a job (not paid of course) waiting for me to jump in. But do I really want to facilitate and organise and get more projects going there? Now? maybe in a year... my brain goes round and round..... there is so much potential.
I totally get sucked in to the dynamics. trying to not promise anything I wount be able to keep. It a great chance and challenge to learn to set clear boundaries for my self, always try to see the positive and dont start talking negative right away. To become humble. Work with my need for attention. Do the things I really want to do.
And hey, there are so many other beautyful places in thi sworld that need attention, connection and care and also have potential in them.
I hope I will never forget this and also be able to bring some of the world back to the Homestead and not get swallowed by it, because isolated it will never fullfill its purpose.
Courage!
2 weeks in Homer
It feels a little bit like coming home already. My aunt Mossy gives Dave and me a ride to the Homestead. We have ~ 2 weeks in front of us to connect with the land, with ourselves and the family.
Time is flying by. We do walks, finish up putting fence posts on the property, dig potatos and give all kilchers a share, talk about the future, open up, learn to trust each other more, cook with the wood stove, dave even manages to make bread...
I try to get up every morning before sunrise to greet the sun and drink a glass of water. One day I do a little one day / one night fire fasting ceremony on Stellaveras house side, I still need to become more confident in what I am doing in such situations. Its a start. To make sacred fires is something I promised to LEading Earth Woman from the Mohawk tribe. Dave is with me most of the time, the evening I am by my self. I just drink water. I become so week. I didnt believe that this would happen. I hardly make it up the hill the next morning and I am also not able to eat the jummy breakfast Dave made for me. Eggs, potatos, hot choclate etc. The breakfast I was dreaming about but didnt tell him and he did it. but my stomache cannot handle it right away. I need a whole day to recover. the next day I feel the strength coming back. And something in my heart is singing.
Time is flying by. We do walks, finish up putting fence posts on the property, dig potatos and give all kilchers a share, talk about the future, open up, learn to trust each other more, cook with the wood stove, dave even manages to make bread...
I try to get up every morning before sunrise to greet the sun and drink a glass of water. One day I do a little one day / one night fire fasting ceremony on Stellaveras house side, I still need to become more confident in what I am doing in such situations. Its a start. To make sacred fires is something I promised to LEading Earth Woman from the Mohawk tribe. Dave is with me most of the time, the evening I am by my self. I just drink water. I become so week. I didnt believe that this would happen. I hardly make it up the hill the next morning and I am also not able to eat the jummy breakfast Dave made for me. Eggs, potatos, hot choclate etc. The breakfast I was dreaming about but didnt tell him and he did it. but my stomache cannot handle it right away. I need a whole day to recover. the next day I feel the strength coming back. And something in my heart is singing.
Thursday 9 October 2008
Fairbanks
PRE:
In Winter 2006 / 07 I meet an Alaskan family with 6 kids traveling through europe for educational reasons and visited the Goetheanum in Dornach, Switzerland. Reminded of the stories of my mom in ~ 1957, when her family from Alaska was traveling with 6 kids through Switzerland I did anything I could for them.
It was a bit before X-mas and despite being very busy I showed them around and had a wonderful time. They came back in new year and we even managed to do a Acrobalance show together at the Initiative meeting of the youthsection.
The 2 oldest girsl, May and Michelle came the next summer to join the South Dakota Workcamp "Building a strawbale house for the Lakota waldorf school".
So now I wante dto visit them together with Dave, because he knew the girls as well.
Up there the fall had come already, yello trees everywhere. It was so beautyfull. Hitchhiking was ok, we did have to wait though once for more then 2 hours to get a ride. It was Marys Birthdaypaty and we wanted to surprise her, just the mom knew we would come. We made just in time for the cake.
It was so good to see them all again.
The youngest one, now 4 years old, was so qute, that I totally fall in love with him and he with me. HAd lots of fun together with all the kids. they just had moved to a knew house.
Lisa and Dorin, the parents, are great people to talk about Anthroposophy about. And they are really very eager to bring Anthroposphy alive in Alaska, which is great.
They took us the next day to thir friends, who have a organic bio dynamic garden with vegetables that are so big you dont believe when you see them the first time. the Kohlrabi is as big as your head.
In the evening they took us to a hot spring. Hot vulcano water in the middle of Alaska Mauntains. In the winter it must be even more amazing with ice and snow around and the northern lights above you.
The next morning we visited a small tiny little Anthroposophical Library. In the middle of the wildernis. And they had the biography of D.N.Dunlop. Tee book I always wanted to read. And I could take it with me to Homer. Its one of the best books ever to undersatnd the beginnings of Anthroposophy and those times at the turning of the last century.
We hitch hiked back all the way to Anchorage, mainly driving with a Israeli with very interesting thoughts about the whole conflict in Palestine and lots of knowledge about the old days. So I could ask him al lthe questions I ever had about Judaism etc. and he could answer all of them :-)
In Winter 2006 / 07 I meet an Alaskan family with 6 kids traveling through europe for educational reasons and visited the Goetheanum in Dornach, Switzerland. Reminded of the stories of my mom in ~ 1957, when her family from Alaska was traveling with 6 kids through Switzerland I did anything I could for them.
It was a bit before X-mas and despite being very busy I showed them around and had a wonderful time. They came back in new year and we even managed to do a Acrobalance show together at the Initiative meeting of the youthsection.
The 2 oldest girsl, May and Michelle came the next summer to join the South Dakota Workcamp "Building a strawbale house for the Lakota waldorf school".
So now I wante dto visit them together with Dave, because he knew the girls as well.
Up there the fall had come already, yello trees everywhere. It was so beautyfull. Hitchhiking was ok, we did have to wait though once for more then 2 hours to get a ride. It was Marys Birthdaypaty and we wanted to surprise her, just the mom knew we would come. We made just in time for the cake.
It was so good to see them all again.
The youngest one, now 4 years old, was so qute, that I totally fall in love with him and he with me. HAd lots of fun together with all the kids. they just had moved to a knew house.
Lisa and Dorin, the parents, are great people to talk about Anthroposophy about. And they are really very eager to bring Anthroposphy alive in Alaska, which is great.
They took us the next day to thir friends, who have a organic bio dynamic garden with vegetables that are so big you dont believe when you see them the first time. the Kohlrabi is as big as your head.
In the evening they took us to a hot spring. Hot vulcano water in the middle of Alaska Mauntains. In the winter it must be even more amazing with ice and snow around and the northern lights above you.
The next morning we visited a small tiny little Anthroposophical Library. In the middle of the wildernis. And they had the biography of D.N.Dunlop. Tee book I always wanted to read. And I could take it with me to Homer. Its one of the best books ever to undersatnd the beginnings of Anthroposophy and those times at the turning of the last century.
We hitch hiked back all the way to Anchorage, mainly driving with a Israeli with very interesting thoughts about the whole conflict in Palestine and lots of knowledge about the old days. So I could ask him al lthe questions I ever had about Judaism etc. and he could answer all of them :-)
back in Alaska, Anchorage
It was time to go back. I had missed Dave the last days in Toronto very much. I wanted to celebrate my 7th year birthday after my car accident on Sept 17th in 2001 with my self, thinking to my sister Geraldine who was with me then. So I did some nice things for my self this day, even managed to get some Taco Bell 7 layer Burrito to eat.
But I missed Dave.
So there I was, arriving in Anchorage once again. My first round trip from and to Alaska.
He picked me up from the airport, it was so nice to see him again. His hugs are amazing good feeling.
We stayed at a friends house, Fleischers. They are great people, very political involved and awake. We also meet their daughter and kids who go to an Waldorf inspired Charter school on Anchorage. Good connections.
he next night we spent at Art Davidsons house. And then decided to Hitch hike to Fairbanks to see my Alaska family I meet almoust 2 years ago in Switzerland.
But I missed Dave.
So there I was, arriving in Anchorage once again. My first round trip from and to Alaska.
He picked me up from the airport, it was so nice to see him again. His hugs are amazing good feeling.
We stayed at a friends house, Fleischers. They are great people, very political involved and awake. We also meet their daughter and kids who go to an Waldorf inspired Charter school on Anchorage. Good connections.
he next night we spent at Art Davidsons house. And then decided to Hitch hike to Fairbanks to see my Alaska family I meet almoust 2 years ago in Switzerland.
Maria Helms
the world is small. Through Dave I got an address of a family that lives in Toronto. It was the sister of Almuth I had also meet in Konstanz. And then I find out it is aria Helm, the ex wife of my first english teacher. Wow, and Raffaela and her sister Goia were there to. She works as a Eurythmie Teacher in the Toronto Waldorfschool.
SO i had to go and see them. Had some good dinner with them and good talks.
:-)
the world is small, so many connections....
SO i had to go and see them. Had some good dinner with them and good talks.
:-)
the world is small, so many connections....
Turtle Bag
In 2005, when I visited South Dakota the first time, I fell in love with a bag made of leather and turtle shell. Because I couldnt afford it at that time, my native family took me to a wild life refugee camp, and then after ~ 2 hours of walking around Little Sun found the first Turtle Shell. So I got one ad promised myself to make a bag out of it one day.
After the Retreat at Dianes, I went to see Grandpa Gil 4 hours north of Toronto, who was good in leather work ad helped me to start the turtle bag. We had some disagreements of how it should look like, but managed to get somewhere. It was very emotional for me, because I carried the material for 3 years around the world to do the bag, and then finally cutting the leather wasnt that easy. Anyway I hope I will take time to finish it when I am in Alaska.
After that day I hitch hiked back to Toronto.
After the Retreat at Dianes, I went to see Grandpa Gil 4 hours north of Toronto, who was good in leather work ad helped me to start the turtle bag. We had some disagreements of how it should look like, but managed to get somewhere. It was very emotional for me, because I carried the material for 3 years around the world to do the bag, and then finally cutting the leather wasnt that easy. Anyway I hope I will take time to finish it when I am in Alaska.
After that day I hitch hiked back to Toronto.
WSYC Toronto
On our last day together, we went to Toronto and meet in the Interfaith Center.
Diane and her people made a ceremony for all of us and all the guests (about 100 people, lots of young people as well) and then other religions were introduced. Then all of us from the WSYC had to introduce ourselves. Then we split in small groups and all of us from the WSYC facilitated one of them. Talking about their questions, stories, spirituality. It was a very freeing atmosphere. In the end some kids were performing for us and we presented the essence of our conversations.
Another meeting was planned and announced to see if the people who would come to the second one would like to start something like the WSYC Toronto.
The day ended with an amazing meal at a friends house of Terry and then us sleeping at the Scarborough Missions.
I didnt manage to say good bye to Diane, but I guess I will see her again in Hawaii soon.
Diane and her people made a ceremony for all of us and all the guests (about 100 people, lots of young people as well) and then other religions were introduced. Then all of us from the WSYC had to introduce ourselves. Then we split in small groups and all of us from the WSYC facilitated one of them. Talking about their questions, stories, spirituality. It was a very freeing atmosphere. In the end some kids were performing for us and we presented the essence of our conversations.
Another meeting was planned and announced to see if the people who would come to the second one would like to start something like the WSYC Toronto.
The day ended with an amazing meal at a friends house of Terry and then us sleeping at the Scarborough Missions.
I didnt manage to say good bye to Diane, but I guess I will see her again in Hawaii soon.
Father Terry from Scarborough Missions
Father Terry, A catholic Priest from Scarborough MIssions from Toronto was one of the people who had invited us for this retreat.
It is always amazing to me to see how he takes in all those accusations f the native of what the missions had done to their people and him asking for apologize, and also acting according to his words.
The passing on of his Mother a month before the gathering made it possible financially that we actually could be there with Diana in the Turtle Lodge. It was also him who I asked for blessings first that one day, I was so confused by the question if Christianity and the old Native moon ways could go together.
After the retreat at 6 Nations, I stayed 2 days in the Sacrborough Missions. It was very interesting to see and talk to lots of priests and see pictures from their work all around the world. And I could use the internet and answer emails for one whole day without having bad feelings or someone disturbing me by accident.
Thank you Father Terry!!!
It is always amazing to me to see how he takes in all those accusations f the native of what the missions had done to their people and him asking for apologize, and also acting according to his words.
The passing on of his Mother a month before the gathering made it possible financially that we actually could be there with Diana in the Turtle Lodge. It was also him who I asked for blessings first that one day, I was so confused by the question if Christianity and the old Native moon ways could go together.
After the retreat at 6 Nations, I stayed 2 days in the Sacrborough Missions. It was very interesting to see and talk to lots of priests and see pictures from their work all around the world. And I could use the internet and answer emails for one whole day without having bad feelings or someone disturbing me by accident.
Thank you Father Terry!!!
Elders & Youth
One of the most important Ceremonies we did where the ones for the elders and the Youth. And they were so simple but so powerful that almoust everyone cried a bit
one morning Diane asked the elders to sit in the west of the turtle lodge and asked us the young people to walk raound them and give them our love, pad them with Eagle Feathers and Rattles etc. Then she and her people were chanting blessing and healing songs while we did that. Lots of the old people lost some tears. It most have been very emotional for them.
The next day she asked the elders to stand in a line out side and all the young people could line up in front of who they wanted and receive a blessing from their elder. They also were singing healing songs and blessings while this happened. This time I was "durchgeruettelt" = shaked through my bones.
Somehow for everyone it felt like a circle was completed. It was sooooo...... good.
Other ceremonies we did / other teachings we received: ( you can get details of them on request)
- Ancestor Ceremony (get in contact with an ancestor)
- Sweat lodge for man and woman at the same time
- How to prepare a Sweat Lodge
- Story of Peace maker and the great Law of Peace
- Moon Lodge specials
- 7 Ways that come with the Animals :
Eagle ( Love) Bear ( Courage) Buffalo (Honety and Respect) Wolf ( Humility) Sasquatch (Transparency) Beaver ( Wisdom) Turtle (Truth)
- Spiritual Discipline - how can you become a spiritual Warrior
- Praying
- Facilitation
- Fundraising
one morning Diane asked the elders to sit in the west of the turtle lodge and asked us the young people to walk raound them and give them our love, pad them with Eagle Feathers and Rattles etc. Then she and her people were chanting blessing and healing songs while we did that. Lots of the old people lost some tears. It most have been very emotional for them.
The next day she asked the elders to stand in a line out side and all the young people could line up in front of who they wanted and receive a blessing from their elder. They also were singing healing songs and blessings while this happened. This time I was "durchgeruettelt" = shaked through my bones.
Somehow for everyone it felt like a circle was completed. It was sooooo...... good.
Other ceremonies we did / other teachings we received: ( you can get details of them on request)
- Ancestor Ceremony (get in contact with an ancestor)
- Sweat lodge for man and woman at the same time
- How to prepare a Sweat Lodge
- Story of Peace maker and the great Law of Peace
- Moon Lodge specials
- 7 Ways that come with the Animals :
Eagle ( Love) Bear ( Courage) Buffalo (Honety and Respect) Wolf ( Humility) Sasquatch (Transparency) Beaver ( Wisdom) Turtle (Truth)
- Spiritual Discipline - how can you become a spiritual Warrior
- Praying
- Facilitation
- Fundraising
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