little big inner step

May 1st,
a conversation with my Dad
then an earth quake (inside me) and tears.
(more then pms?)
The cause:
The astral body is NOT the soul. The ego, the "I" is the soul. And this "I", the soul roots in the physical body and blossoms in the spiritual body.
(for you it might be clear and nothing special, but for me it was shaking my whole world - I always thought that astral ment soul and ego spirit.)
The ego is the nucleus of the soul, and the astral and the the soul body create the body in which the soul can unfold. The soul, the "I" is an dynamic principle. Its the "I am" and our work is to build this soul, the "I", the "ego" and protect it. It is the bridge between the spiritual and the physical world. And the physical means including the physical body, the etheric life body and the astral body.
Complicated issues full of contradictions if you read it in the "Theosophie" by R.Steiner, which alsways bugged me. All those schemes that didnt make sence in comparison if you thought that the astral is the soul...
Well, I am digesting this at the moment, but I feel that I have done a little step forward.
;-)